Getting frustrated

Ok so i know i haven't been on in a couple days. But there is allot of things that have been going on. 1st off Chase has been a ROYAL shit lately being even more defiant then the day before, and with Ash and I trying to turn over a new leaf with him about being so strict on stupid little things. and ohhhhh boy does he know it, the other day he bit a kid at school for no reason and then would not listen to a word the teacher said. its getting so hard not to yell at him or swear at him. I have defiantly reached my limit and so has momma. Not only that my car decided to shit the bed again this time i have really no idea what is wrong with it, I thought it was the timing but i got that fixed and now the car starts but dies when i hit the gas. so now im down to it has to be a spark issue. this whole thing has been going on for about a week now and we are ready to just get rid of the friggin car. but honestly at this point i want to keep the car and just fix it the way i want to. Ash on the other hand is R E A D Y to get rid of it. how do i convince her to let me get another motor??? The one i want and to do it the right way this time? i think i just asked her because she reads this as well.. but any way when it shit the bed we started talkin that we needed a car like NOW so we went around and looked at a couple of places all said no. Lets be honest here i dont have the best credit in the world but i have a good pay check. and with the economy the way it is no one is going to lend. so then we decide to go online and go to a place called Bar none. now is where the phone calls started. we get one phone call saying that we are Pre approved so is there a way we can come down and get the ball rolling. Ash canceled her plans and we loaded up the kids to drive through Chicago traffic at 6pm is when we left our house. didnt get to the dealership till 715 on a 25min drive!!! W T F O?? meet the guy and he ran my credit AGAIN sat around for an hour waiting for a big fat NO. im sorry but what the flip does pre approved mean then?! not only that we canceled plans loaded the kids up past their bed time so they were cranky kind of just to waist our gas to get a friggin NO after being pre approved.. F off you pricks....... we get home and say were going to wait and the phone calls keep commin some from the same place and we told them we were just there yesterday and you told us no. Really who did you talk to ? so the name got dropped and we get a let me call you back.. no call. so this other place i decided to go to today by myself with the kids, because i wasnt going to have momma cancel her plans again said we can get you in "Something" but you need at least 1,000 down...... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH no dude if i had that i would just fix my car and deal with that.. that place is just a long story i dont feel getting into right now. But what i will say is they tried to get me into a POS 96 Nissan that was all rusted out and ect. Im sorry but if i would have brought that home momma would have shot me in the face.. on top of that Chase was being his normal self (annoying) as all hell driving me insane. so like i said before i might as well just save for the motor i want and do it the right way. Then another thing i am getting irritated is the fact that Ash and i have put some very touchy and secret stuff in our past that other people think they know.. and because she had a falling out with some one who thinks they know and thought they were just helping out when all this started with me and momma. started talking shit AGAIN about shit they dont know.. why dont you just shut up, just because your not happy in your frigging marriages stay the fuck out of mine. why dont you learn to put your 2cents in to some one who cares, better yet here is a fucking quarter buy your self a life cause that is all you are worth in my book. your lucky i dont take a phone and shove it somewhere.. oh wait you might like it cause that is the most your gettin.. it just really gets to me that people just thrive on this stuff, trying to make other people miserable just to make their lives look better in their eyes. Those who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.. Me and momma are doing great but there was a time that we wernt and this is where this quote comes to play.. "if your going to hell just keep going through" (Winston Churchill) my interpretation of that is its gotta get better soon or once you hit bottom the only way to go is up. and we are. so back the fuck off and leave us alone....... ok im sorry now that i got that out its been bugging me all day and this blog now turned into a rage. its 2 in the morning and my beautiful wife just fell asleep so i think i am going to end this and try to get some shut eye before my kids get up in like 3 hours. night all and same as always thanks for taking the time.. see ya next time..